Digging through my mind and memories

I remember once you told me

That nobody’d care if I disappeared

And I believed every word

Everyday I’d stare at my reflection

But all I ever saw was imperfection

I’d cry at the mirror

But no one would hear

You never let them listen

Wish that the weather wasn’t so grey

Wish I was better, and knew what to say

It feels like I’m playing a dangerous game

Fake it till I makе it

Till I’m finally okay

Hadn’t seen the sun for an eternity

Skirting round thе borderline of sanity

I’d scream at the wind but no one would listen

You never let them in

Tell me that I’ll reach a destination

Cause Oh my God I’m running out of patience

Swear on my life I’ll be alright

Just tired of these burning eyes

Wish that the weather wasn’t so grey

Wish I was better, and knew what to say

It feels like I’m playing a dangerous game

Fake it till I make it

Till I’m finally okay

Take back your conscience and your crimes

Every minute of your time

Get the f*ck out of my mind

Take back your weapons and your words

Put the seconds on reverse

All this hatred u deserve

U deserve, u deserve

Wish that the weather wasn’t so grey

Wish I was better, and knew what to say

It feels like I’m playing a dangerous game

Fake it till I make it

Till I’m finally okay

Now I hardly ever feel depleted

Cause when I smile I genuinely mean it

Knowing myself I don’t need help

From you or anyone else

Jealousy corrupts your standards

Like melodies with empty lanterns

But when he laughs it heals my heart

It makes me feel enough