I ran away
But it saved my life
And the lights outside my window
Help me sleep at night

'Cause when the lights go out
It all comes crashing in
Just how lucky I am
To still be breathing in

And the footsteps as I walk towards my front door

The key slips
The lock scratched
The sound so familiar

'Cause I traded in my jacket
For a newfound sense of freedom
'Cause winters, they don't
Scare me like the used to anymore

And I sold my guitar
'Cause I don't really write so much anymore
And I've kind of grown accustomed
To the noises in my head
I gave up searching
I think I'm happy with who I am
Even though I chewed up
And spat out my family and friends
I've still got my whole life
To make it up and make amends
I know it's not much to you
But maybe you could understand

I breathe in
This city

And look at what I've started
I think I've spent enough hours
Killing myself
Over what I thought you saw in me

And when I leave
I try to keep it off my mind
That the rain back home
Swallowed all I left behind

I gave up searching
I think I'm happy with who I am
Even though I chewed up
And spat out my family and friends
I've still got my whole life
To make it up and make amends
I know it's not much to you
But maybe you could understand
I ran away
But it saved my life
The lights outside my window
Help me sleep at night

It's like I'm standing on the edge of a life to be
And whatever happens next was always up to me
No longer will I compare myself
To establish my self worth