I ran away
But it saved my life
And the lights outside my window
Help me sleep at night
'Cause when the lights come on
It all comes crashing in
Just how lucky I am
To still be breathing in
And the footsteps as I walk towards my front door
The key slips
The lock scratched
The sound so familiar
I traded in my jacket
For a newfound sense of freedom
'Cause winters, they don't
Scare me like the used to anymore
And I sold my guitar
So I don't really write so much anymore
And I've kind of grown accustomed
To all the noises in my head
I gave up searching
I think I'm happy with who I am
Even though I chewed up
And spat out my family and friends
I've still got my whole
To make it up and make amends
I know it's not much to you
But maybe you could understand
I breathe in
This city
And look at what I've started
I think I've spent enough hours
Killing myself
Over what I thought you saw in me
And when I leave
I try to keep it off my mind
That the rains back home
Swallowed all I left behind
It's like I'm standing on the edge of a life to be
And whatever happens next was always up to me
No longer will I compare myself
To establish my self-worth