I reminisce
On the last Christmas I spent with my mom and my dad
I'm still trippin', wishin' that I could go back
To know what I'm missin'
it's a mystery, oh, how'd I forget?
I'm not a magician, I try fixin' shit that I can't
Memories make me sick
I hope the past the hardest that it gets
Mama said she drinkin' to forget
I told my mama, "Save your son a sip"
Tryna slow my breath and get a grip
I think life is harder than in death
They're in Heaven, I'm the one that's left
(They left)

I did things that I knew were wrong
But time just keeps movin' on
And no matter which way I run
I can't go back to the way it was
I broke bones and I shed some blood
And timе took a few friends I love
And no mattеr which way I run
I can't go back to the way it was, no

And I can't go back to the way it was, no
And I can't go back to the way it was, no
(Hold this moment while you can)
(Tell your people that you care)
(Do it now while you still can)

I can't go back to the way it was, no
(Can't go back to the—)
I said I can't go back
to the way it was now, oh (No, no)
I can't go back to the way it was, no