I've had back pain for most of my life
And the most I ever did was see the doc
And the doc told me my back was alright
He had initials in his shirt, he had a nice expensive watch
I thought he knew what he was doing
or at least what was right
He made me fill a piece of paper
with different questions all about
My health, wellbeing and the state of my life
I'll tell the truth, I'm only lying to myself
if I should lie
So, I answered everything and did my best
to keep it rеal in between the lines
I gavе it back to him, he took it his time
and read the paper over once or twice
He looked at me as if to say, "I need to tell you something"
"And don't prepare for me to tell you something nice"
He wanted to know how much I tend to drink and smoke
I told him, how it was and then he gave me this advice
He said, "Ease up on stress, you don't help yourself much"
"It's too intense for you to take, you'll only tense up"
"And you see you have these issues
and you struggle to relax"
"So you come see me the doctor
to get something for your back"
"But this piece of paper tells me
that there's more that you should address"
"I see some anger in you, plus addiction, plus the rest"
"I feel like we should speak about this
'fore it comes first"
"And I know a lot of people
who can help for what it's worth"
I said, "I don't know
if you don't understand man my back just fucking hurts"
Do I need physiotherapy? Or is it something worse?
He paused an then he asked me
"What, I thought we should do"
I said, "If I knew that then you wouldn't be here
man I'm asking you"
He handed me to someone who gave me a blood test
Who handed me to someone else
who took my payment and took all of my fucking patience
I should at this point the doctor had already left
And I resented that man, I never went back to him again
Well you know in a weird way I feel like maybe he was right
I may be using my back pain
to distract from the pain of life
Feel it all externally, when really it's just inside
Procrastinating, confrontation, every single time
So thank you Mr. Doctor man for being sincere
I guess I just didn't wanna hear
what I didn't wanna hear, okay