Feels like it's rained in my head
for a hundred days (Feels like it's rained in my head
for a hundred days)
Stare in the mirror and I look for another face
(Stare in the mirror and I look for another face)
And I get so tired of putting out fires and making up lies
Checking my eyes for some kinda light, but
Nothing's inside and it
Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days

And I
Say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh
When I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can save me from my
Lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go

I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times
(I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times)
Believed it myself when I halfway apologized
(Believed it myself when I halfway apologized)
And it's not unfair I'm asking for prayers but
Nobody cares
Going nowhere like falling downstairs
While everyone stares
No one's there when I've asked
for forgiveness a hundred times

And I
Say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh
When I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can save from my
Lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go

No, I'm just taking a shot (Ah)
Maybe I'm just too eager (Oh)
Maybe I lost the plot (Ha)
I used to pity some people (I)
Said they were missing a spine (Yeah)
Maybe the problem is ego (Maybe the-)
Maybe the problem is mine (Really, I'm fine)
Don't get too intimate, don't get too curious
This is just feeling like it's not that serious
Stare at the ceiling (Feeling delirious)
Fuck all your empathy
I want your fury 'cause I will just
Tell you I'm better then (Better then)
Spit out my medicine (Medicine, ay)
Drunk on adrenaline (-drenaline, ay)

And I don't know why I
Say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh
When I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my
Only you can save me my lack of self-control
And I won't make excuses for the pain I caused us both
So thank you for always standing by me even though
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go