Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days
Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days
Stare in the mirror and I look for another face
Stare in the mirror and I look for another face
And I get so tired of puttin' out fires and makin' up lies
Checkin' my eyes for some kinda light
But nothing's inside
And it feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days

And I say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my—
Only you could save me from my lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go

I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times
I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times
Believed it myself when I halfway apologized
Believed it myself when I halfway apologized
And it's not unfair, I'm asking for prayers
But nobody cares
Goin' nowhere like fallin' downstairs
While everyone stares
No one's there
When I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times

And I say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my—
Only you could save me from my lack of self-control
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go

No, I'm just takin' a shot, ah
Maybe I'm just too eager, oh
Maybe I lost the plot, ha
I used to pity some people
I said they were missing a spine
Yeah, maybe the problem is ego
Maybe the, maybe the problem is mine
Really, I'm fine
Don't get too intimate, don't get too curious
This is just feelin' like it's not that serious
Stare at the ceiling, feeling delirious
Fuck all your empathy, I want your fury
'Cause I will just
Tell you I'm better, then, better, then
Spit out my medicine, medicine, ayy
Drunk on adrenaline, 'drenaline, ayy
And I don't know why I

Say I hate you when I don't
Push you when you get too close
It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke
But I can't do this on my—
Only you could save me from my lack of self-control
And I won't make excuses for the pain I caused us both
So thank you for always standing by me even though
Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go