2015 I nearly died
Looked the brudda in his eyes
Told him if you're gonna do it, do it
I was full of pride
Thank God he let it slide
Coulda seen my mother cry
Coulda gotten 25
Just another brother's life
Cas came and blessed the beef
On a south London street
I was doing uni then
I was probably 23
Just another wannabe
What you sow is what you reap
Smiling on the outside
But I was crying underneath
2020 Christmas eve
Swear down it wasn't me
Had a mental breakdown
Something you don't wanna see
Knowing that I had a gift
I ain't talking duty free
Brothers like a pack of sharks
Probably should of let it be
Wasn't tryna leave a scar
Blood is what they wanna see
Mothеr used to speak her mind
Hoping that hеr son achieved
To hear your son is dead and gone
Is something you don't wanna read
But I was fully on the grind
Tryna make some honest p's
My family looking at me like a cheque
How'm I supposed to feel?
Guess this was the life I kinda chose
So imma keep it real
Chicks looking at me like a cheque
How'm I supposed to feel?
They ain't even showed me my respect
Lemme close this deal
I hate the feeling that my worth
Was in what I made
Lately it's been having me disturbed
It's another day
Couple times it coulda took a turn
That's a close escape
Been a minute since I hit the church
I know I need to pray
Long time since we was on the curb
Tryna find a way
A man really only has his word and his father's name
This boy said my music saved his life
Don't know what to say
Days passed made it through the stress
Now it's brighter days
Times when I was at my worst at my mother's place
Seems like they was getting theirs mine was coming late
Whether you was second or your first
It's another race
Just know when you plant the seeds
Don't forget the rain