Cause i feel the pain

I feel the rain, I feel the fire

I feel ashamed, I feel insane

I feel desire

Nothing to say i feel a way

Down to the wire

Just take me higher

Just take me higher

High, high

High, high

Greetings, greetings friends, so we meet again

The searching I've been doing has lead me to this moment

I found the main component

Streets crazy man I nearly fell victim

Just another number in the system, oh they would missed him

Gone like the clouds in the distance

Yo it could be over in a instant

Gotta givе thanks, cause it coulda been a mess

PTSD i ain’t coping with the strеss

Tryna get the last laugh took me to the depths

I was living with this hard heart heavy and depressed

Pride put me to the test, can't regress, living with regrets

Mother wept by the steps, I'm living for the flesh

I shivered in my creps I can’t half the debts

Was riddled with the stress this heart can't posses

Cold sweats, I didn't address the debt still owed

One less zero crept and kept below

Trauma as a kiddo, I just needed a hero

Weeped like the willow, soaked the whole pillow

The chipped Brillo, used to swig it by the bar

My mother said her fear is we was swimming with sharks

I missed a couple wishes, we was still in the dark

My life story crazy man you wouldn't know the half

I'm living fast, shivers up in our hearts

Dismissive bout the misses, envisioned to hit to mark

The trick is I was viscous my spirits was in the dark

Stitching the biggest scars, feeling its hitting hard

I can't let this life defeat me

Nobody told me life was easy

It's been a ride I'm tired and weary

But life won’t kill me

I can’t let this life defeat me

Nobody told me life was easy

It's been a ride I’m tired and weary

But life won't kill me

I had this vision of Jesus and he was staring at me

Arms starched out he told me that he loved me

Tears started falling I was running away

He said he died for my sins so there's nothing to pay

I was living in a cage he delivered the grace

I was giving him the praise, I remembered the grave

Now my heart stays saved i'm delivered and safe

Heartbreaks, I was living astray

Everyday we have choice, we have a choice in situations

A choice to show hatred or a choice to show patience

A choice to show pride or a choice of being gracious

A choice of being average or a choice to be the greatest

Humility and honesty was what I’m tryna mirror

When I was on my own it was the Lord that was a pillar

I tried to make a change but saw

the chance was getting slimmer

No matter how you play it really I was just a sinner

Speaking to the holy man and asking him a question

He told me there's a higher chance I'm making it to heaven

Cause I believe in Jesus and I'm learning from my lessons

I know that this was hard but you should focus on repentance

I used say at least I ain't a killer or a thief

If every sin was equal then where was it leaving me

I guess that we was equal that was really what it seems

I tried to count the blessings

through the pressures and grief

I can't let this life defeat me

Nobody told me life was easy

It's been a ride I'm tired and weary

But life won't kill me

I can't let this life defeat me

Nobody told me life was easy

It's been a ride I'm tired and weary

But life won't kill me

I feel convicted to make a change a revolution

See it's the changing of the mindset

Things we gotta digest but we always digress

avoiding the problem

This ain't an option there was work to be done it's urgent

Or we could sit here and watch the world burn

They rather stay dumb, than read a book and not learn

It's shameless, nobody wanna think no more

There's people drowning to the

point they couldn't sink no more

Cause that's the way that we was taught

that's the way that we're trained

Bury the trauma in the back and don't address it again

Til the trauma manifests and you was never the same

Doing the same thing twice and expecting a change

I mean we really need reminding what was really the truth

It's propaganda every time that I was reading the news

We need teachers, teachers who was teaching the truth

Cause seeds weaken they was needing the roots

I wrote this verse for anybody out there poisoning the youth

That goes for corporations

governments and rappers in the booth

All that kill a man and shout about its never gonna do

But I guess that was depending on your views

so tell me what's the move?

Cause everyday we're running out of time

Sometimes you gotta leave the world behind

Was thinking if the food don't kill us

the the fumes might kill us

I'm just hoping we dont kill ourselves (well)

I can't let this life defeat me

Nobody told me life was easy

It's been a ride I'm tired and weary

But life won't kill me

I can't let this life defeat me

Nobody told me life was easy

It's been a ride I'm tired and weary

But life won't kill me