Dear Father, I hope I've healed proper

Hope the scars you left won't touch salt water

And the grudge in my heart no longer spread far

Prayin' for the days we get through dinner with no problems

It's hard not to put the blame on you

Every day I'm afraid that I'm the same as you

Maybe it's cope thinkin' I'll do better

But the family gene, the rage, I know it came from you

The best and the worst, I'm doomed to inherit

The love and the hate make the perfect parents

And you tried your best, that much, I'll admit it

But when you at your worst, well, that's family business

Well, that's family business

Well, that's family business

Family business

And my culture tell me I should be grateful

Common practice of shamin', they call it bein' playful

Feel the weight of disgrace and the disappointin' gazes

Under the facade of they fake appraises, I know they hateful

I tell myself I'll be better

Tell myself I'll never say the same shit

that you had said to us either

Never tell my kids to go die in a ditch or wherever

Never tell my kids they trash 'cause they failed at whatever

And granted, I know that life was never easy for you

I understand trauma left you with no peace in your mood

Deceivin', rage bleed in everythin' that you do

Your father passed before you could be at peace with him too

I know, I tell myself I'll be better

I tell myself that

but I feel your rage in my veins when I'm fed up

Starin' at the mirror, see the exact same errors

And every time I seem to fail, all I feel is embarrassed

And they tell me that you changed

that you grew 'cause of age

But I'm cynical, I'm knowin' that deep down you the same

'Cause I be hearin' how you speak

about your daughter to shame

Even though she doin' great, I hear the same type of hate

Daddy issues, I guess I can't help it

Tell myself I'm better, really I am just as selfish

Only focused on where my wealth is

It's funny, now I'm grown

you say that money can't replace your health

But as a kid, you had told me get on my shit

Hustled every single dollar, nickels, down to the cent

And maybe you had forgot, but I could never forget

Every single time you told me to go die in a ditch

Now I'm 'posed to get through it and let it go?

Forgiveness is a pill I can't swallow, I tend to choke

I'm petty and sensitive, part of the family though

Where did I get it from? Bet you already know

And I should be thankin' you, you why they lovin' me

You my role model 'cause you who I don't wanna be

But I can't let you go, no matter how good it seems

Family is everythin' even if it is burnin' me

Family is everythin' even if that family tree

Echoes of our trauma passin' down with the family gene

Suffocate our feelings, replace it with animosity

Never stay the victim, we stoic because we gotta be

On the plate of illness

can't show the pain that be plaguin' me

Even if it's death, our last breath ain't complacency

Even if it's love, it ain't enough, that's just make believe

Even at the end, can't show 'em how much the pain it stings

Just like us, the best and the worst, I'm doomed to inherit

The love and the hate make the perfect parents

And you tried your best, that much, I'll admit it

But when you at your worst, well, that's family business