Made him take the longest way home
Hoping he would change his mind before
He dropped me off
I thought If I said nothing, it'd make him think of something
That was worth holding on, too

But I never really gave him the choice to choose
hate myself for not letting those blue eyes
see, anything but the car door slammed behind me
I bet he thought that meant more than goodbye

Now I'm standing in this crowd of people
Wishing he was one of them so I could see him
I'd say what I, said under my breath to myself after he left
That I, I
Know I said go, but it also, meant stay

Now I know I'll just look for him in everyone else
instead of just asking him to come back
And I wondered when 3am rolled around
was when he figured out
That talking to himself, in an empty room, was exactly
What I was doing too. it was just too soon, to go

I'm standing in this crowd of people
Wishing he was one of them so I could see him
I'd say what I, said under my breath to myself after he left
That I, I
Know I said go, but it also, meant stay

And the first time he actually listened to me
Was when I needed him to disagree the most
I needed him to come back and hold, everything
Catch it all while I was letting go
Well I was only as far as behind my front door
I was just waiting for him

Now I'm standing in this crowd of people
Wishing he was one of them so I could see him
I'd say what I, said
What I said, to myself
And I know, I know I said go
but it also, meant stay

I'm standing in this crowd of people
Wishing he was one of them so I could see him
I'd say what I, said under my breath to myself after he left
That I, I
Know I said go, but it also, meant stay

Now I know I'll just look for him in everyone else