Holding hindsight. Terrible decisions and blurred days
Not a care at all back then of the man I'd be today
I dug myself a hole, now the ground's too far to reach, so it seems
I'm done living this life of contradiction
It makes me scared to know that
I portray my life through words you've read
And what good is your heart and the words that you say when you're dead?
(I have so much left to give.)

I'm wasting away
Becoming the person I never wanted to be
And I wont let these things dictate who I am
(I'll be the person that you never had)
And what a world I've woke to
All of you are so far I've been standing still
Because I had it burning at both ends

Burning at both ends for far too long
They made me feel alive, they made me feel whole
Now I'm nothing but alive and far from whole

Walking down the wrong roads, time and time again
I've put so much shit into myself, I don't know how I am standing
I pushed myself from you all
And I have no one else to blame but myself
And this fucking empty shell that I am left with

Lies, I've said
I can't take them back, but I can start over
Not sure if I'm proud of the life I've lead
But I am still alive, so I can make a difference
I can make this change