You never wanted to see me leave this
I never wanted to stick around
And there's a rainstorm in my head
That I just can't outrun right now

I'm faking smiles and stomachs aches
So I can get away
Sometimes I think that I'm the only one
Who feels this way

The only things holding me back
Are my own thoughts in my head
And I can't understand why
I can't just move on and get passed them

It's probably my own fault
And who's to say I can't fix it?
But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way

I thought that with a change of pace
That I could get the hang of this
You're just another something
That I can't seem to erase

I thought that with a change of pace
That things would start to feel okay again
I guess I'm never gonna learn

I tried to make it to the ending
Of a book I never read
I'm relapsing to my old self
Trying to skip all these steps

I'm faking smiles and stomach aches
When I start to feel trapped
It's hard to breathe
I never thought that I would lie
To the ones who stay close to me

I thought that with a change of pace
That I could get the hang of this
You're just another something
That I can't seem to erase

I thought that with a change of pace
That things would start to feel okay again
I guess I'm never gonna learn

Could you tell I wasn't honest?
(I could've been)
I couldn't be all that you wanted