[Part I]

I fill my lungs with half my worth
And try to go numb so that I can't hurt
'Cause at my highs, I'm at my worst
And I can't fly until I crash first

Everyone's seeing me screamin', been that since birth
Everyone's seeing this money I'm blowin'
but nobody's seeing the work
Look, Dad, I'm high like you, for me
the pills don't work
I like digging in a bag, I like smoking 'til it hurts
And if my eyes roll back
then let the tears come first
Been holdin' those in too long
Fakin' it like I'm too strong
And when my eyes roll back, throw my body in the dam
And them things in my pocket
will you hide 'em from my fam?
Will you tell the world I loved hard?
Can you make 'em understand
That all of the things I was struggling
with didn't make me less a man?
And all of thе trauma I'm trying
to bury probably made me who I am
Think growing up broken was nеcessary
so I could fix my fam
And part of me died on his deathbed
holding my daddy's hand
Just tell my daughters their father
will drown if that means they can swim

I fill my lungs with half my worth
And try to go numb so that I can't hurt
'Cause at my highs, I'm at my worst
And I can't fly until I crash first

I know that it takes time, I'm comin' to get you
Walkin' a straight line, I need me a breakthrough
I'm smokin' a grapevine, sippin' the grape juice
Choppin' a white line
It's gettin' harder to face you

[Part II]

(Oh, God)
(Yo, we 'bout to— ayy, look)
(Yo, we 'bout to fuck it up)
(Ayy, Kells, tell the people, man)
(Ayy, bro, ayy, Kells, they act
like we don't do this, man, what? Come on)

Yeah, take my hands off the wheel, I'm speedin'
I said I hate you when I left
I didn't mean it
Open wounds from my nose, still bleedin'
Only you can clean me up, I'm still fiendin'
Cold sweats in these meds, can't treat it
No sleep, I'ma party through the weekend
Kerosene, black smoke, I'm breathin'
Somebody, save me, I've been falling off the deep end, uh

All I know is I don't know
how to give a fuck (I don't)
All I know is I don't know
how to give a fuck (I don't)
I couldn't give a fuck (No)
I never gave a fuck (No)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck

Under pressure, I don't got control of my aggression
Under the influence, I'm 'bout
to make a bad impression
On the dresser, it's some ammunition and a weapon
And I've been smoking on this shit since I was adolescent
Three sixes, I'm tryna get lucky, number seven
I wonder if they got a spot for junkies up in Heaven?
Leave a mess if they gon' find my body in the bedroom
And they can listen to this song if they want my confession

Yeah, take my hands off the wheel, I'm speedin'
I said I hate you when I left
I didn't mean it
Open wounds from my nose, still bleedin'
Only you can clean me up, I'm still fiendin'
Cold sweats in these meds, can't treat it
No sleep, I'ma party through the weekend
Kerosene, black smoke, I'm breathin'
Somebody, save me, I've been falling off the deep end (No)

All I know is I don't know
how to give a fuck (I don't)
All I know is I don't know
how to give a fuck (I don't)
I couldn't give a fuck (No)
I never gave a fuck (No)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck

Go, go, go, go
I'm getting closer to death
Go, go, go, go
I'm getting closer
Go, go, go, go
I'm getting closer to death
Go, go, go, go
I'm getting closer