How long have I got in the hot light
'Til the shine rusts?
I've been thinking through the hard stuff
Over light drugs like every night
No, you don't need to come over
'Cause I'd crowd please and I'm tired
Slowly morphed into a poser
Barely know her anymore

Do I look high-functioning or
Is my façade crumbling?
Oh God, don't actually answer me, Caroline

But, oh well, look at my life
Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral every night
Bawling my eyes out
No, but I'm so fine
Yeah, I might just shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualizеd
Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right

I just got to the party with thе big shots and the Barbies
Empty talk and talk and talk until my ears bleed
He's holding a pill, he thinks that I should take one
But I'll raise him to the whole bunch
I'm kidding, God, he thinks I'm stupid
What a gut punch, but then we go

Downtown, there's no medicine
I'd spit out if it promises
Slowing down voices
Don't want to hear a sound

But, oh well, look at my life
Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral every night
Bawling my eyes out
No, but I'm so fine
Yeah, I might just shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualized
Got what I, what I

Mm, maybe if I smile enough
I'll get away with giving up
I'll move across the country
Just to judge myself, like, just as much
As I do when I'm sitting here
I miss my friends that disappear
And haven't seen 'em in a year
Oh God, what am I doing here?

But, oh well, look at my life (Look at my life)
Bet you can't tell
But it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral every night (Every night)
Bawling my eyes out
No, but I'm so fine
Yeah, I might just shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualized
Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right

Ooh-ooh-ooh (Right)
I got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (Right, right)
Ooh-ooh-ooh (Right)
Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (Right, right)