I don’t know if I blame you for being so distant

But I’m tryna be real with you

and God, it’s been a hell of a week

And I just wanna relate to you in a true way

If it means being here with you, then hey, I am trying to be

I’ll always struggle to think of you in a harsh way

I know that it’s weird but I still

see you for the human beneath

I wish that I was in love with your endless bullshit

But I’m a "heart in the gutter" type

asleep on a stranger's knee

I’m getting used to the sleepless hours from sundown

The terrible dreams that lead me inward to terrible truths

But in my blood, some electric holy yearning

Carries an impulse to get shit-faced on you

Tell me how I can do this thing

Tell me how I can help this thing go easily

'Cause I’m trying, honeybee

Tell me how I can beat this thing

Tell me how I can make this beast die easily

Goddamn it, honeybee

And get a load of the kid in the Gang Green t-shirt

They were the gateway band, a pastor and the teacher to me

I used to wanna be real with the things they believed in

But since we've been talking

I'm not sure if I believe anything

Take a look at the girl with the long range rifle

The one with the crew cut

she reminds me of a version of you

Laying low in a field some place in Mosul

Wholly emulsified by fear and aversion to truth

When did everything get this weird?

How the fuck did it start?

Did you ever believe in me?

Was it always so hard?

Tell me how I can do this thing

Tell me how I can help this thing go easily

'Cause I’m trying, honeybee

The line is close, the wait is hardly normal

So just be real in any way you can be

The heart is closed, but keep me in the open

'Cause I deserve better than this

The line is close, the wait is hardly normal

So just be real in any way you can be

The heart is closed, but keep me in the open

'Cause I deserve better than this

Yeah, I deserve better than this

And I deserve better than this

'Cause I deserve better than this

And I deserve better than this

'Cause I deserve better than this