Welcome back guys
I'm gonna roast myself again because
well, last time it just wasn't well done

Yo, 'sup!
I'm Gabbie
I'm a high roller
Rollin' through in a brand new Toyota Corolla
Live alone in a two-bedroom apartment
But it's real cheap, you can tell by the carpet
That's ok, 'cause I'm never home
I'm at the gym as you probably know
'Cause I post about it every single time
so my weight loss never slips your mind
I'm workin' out like 8 days a week
'Cause I can't control myself when I eat
(I'm hungry)
Think I'm an Insta model now, what's that about?
By the way, have I mentioned that I work out?
Had the glow up of the motherfucking century
But I'll still die alone eventually
That's right I'm single and I can't keep a man
'Cause I'm crazy in a way you could never understand
Lots of fans but where all my friends?
And, I'm alone every night of the weekend
'Cause my social life's been in the trash can
Love myself when I'm pumped with injections
Oh uh, oh, oh, no my views are low
Looks like my hair has got to go, again
But, hey, no sweat, no biggie
As long as you pay attention to me
Pay attention to me
Pay attention to me
Always say I'm working hard
but then again, who am I kidding?
See my job is a joke
I take selfies for a living
But I gotta say, it's not no work, all play
If you're not convinced, check my resume
Call myself a musician
but count my songs, 1, 2
First single, 'Out Loud'
sounds better on mute
And speaking of single, it makes no sense man
"I'm a satellite"
but never had a true connection
My music's underwhelming
but my biggest crimes are my New York Times
best selling nursery rhymes
Storytime!
I admit, I may have overreacted
And I hope you can see past it
if I'm over-dramatic
If my antics seem erratic
and a touch problematic
It's an old bad habit
I do mental acrobatics
Make the situation seem undoubtedly traumatic
When the truth is
if you study my intense reactions
then the actions are a far cry from pragmatic
It's a business tactic
'Cause the honest fact is
If you break it down
it's really quite systematic
See I have an audience that has a demographic
On a platform run by analytics
On a platform that's strictly algorithmic
On a platform as long as your charismatic
Then the platform rewards bein' a dick
So maybe that's me (if the shoe fits, wear it)
Hey, forgive me
Like the video and share it
And I think that we can all forgive Bryan Le
'Cause he only did what you all wanna do to me

Overwhelmed overworked overpaid
I'm on top of the world
sittin' pretty on a stack
But the static still cracks in my veins
At the bottom of the universe
I'm feelin' all the weight

People die for this
People lie for this
People suck and fuck some guy for this

Pay the toll for this
Sell their soul for this
Play the part but what's my role in this?
I'm not built for this
All the guilt of this
And I don't think I can deal with this

I'm too old for this
Gonna fold from this
People starvin'
And I get gold for this?

You all chalk me up
as some whiny fuck who's stressed by success
Like my life sucks

I get it, I know, its such a conundrum
I get what I want
but I can't have much fun with it
It's not the fame or the money I'm yearnin'
I don't give a fuck
about what I've been earnin'
But each day I wake up
more blessed than I'm learing'
Out of all these people
I'm least to deserve it

I don't deserve it

I try to be perfect I'll never be perfect
I'm not worth it
Keep lookin' for answers I swear I've searchin'
But I come up short, and give up quick
'Cause if I found it
I think id be scared of it
You don't see the scene
that's behind the screen
And I urge you all to be aware of it
It's an interesting dichotomy of monetized
sincerity
Stir up my insecurity with constant uncertainty
Generation of anxiety
The "look at me" society
Dubiety of piety
The gods all suffer silently
I'm sorry for my obsession with attention
I have an ungodly fear of rejection
My apprehension and objection
is the viral infection
Of dollars and followers in place of affection
What I need is a human connection
Not blue light and a foggy reflection
of my misconception of my own perception
Result of too much introspection
They find my disinterest interesting
My depression, a funny thing
My decline is relatable
People love that I hate myself
Yeah, they love that I hate myself
People love that I hate myself
People love that I hate myself
People love that I hate myself
I climbed out of my head
And watched myself implode
A thought without a body
Ought to be the shot to take a load off
My brain is poisoned
And I'm searching for the antidote
But every time I find it
My defenses scream "oh, no you don't! "
Woah
But it's fine
No, really I'm fine
It's just a matter of time
You'll lose your mind
And not be fine from time to time
I'm not crazy
But I feel crazy all a sudden
In a city never seein'
Snow or rain or leaves in autumn
Lose yourself in seasons
Not remembering that you forgot 'em
Knocking on my door
Can't confront 'em so I lock'em out
But I don't mind
No, I really don't mind
Cause believe it or not
It feels good to be forgot
From time to time
So forget me
And please, God, forgive me
If you feel a touched underwhelmed
By all my overwhelming negativity
Who am I and when?
When's my work day end
And where does me begin?
Are these my colleagues or my friends?
On a scale of ten to one
Do you hate who I've become?
'cause I hate who I've become
I'm sorry for who I've become