Yeah
I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this
fuck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressin'
or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me
that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase
I just wanna feel okay, okay
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday
And it's probably 'cause my demons
simultaneously rage
And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down
searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere
like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself
I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressin'
every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin'
And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine?
Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave
I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster

Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh

You're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a God that you don't believe
You're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is, oh
where the fuck is your God now?

'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster