Why cant they see the dark inside of me, deep within me...
They expect me to put on a smiling face They want me happy but I cant lie As I wipe away the tears that stream down my face
The beauty they see in this atrocious world has forgotten me in this life I enjoy the misery that breeds inside me
Please tell me why...
Happiness is a cruel myth It eludes me every time creating a void in my life Even just the thought of love is fantasy in this day and age Nowhere left for me to hide from this self-inflicted rage
Sleep, my only escape from this pain as I live inside a dream, or so it seems A perfect world that never will exist again
This torment deep inside wont end My life in ruins, I cant pretend Darkness shrouds my every move My mind is all thats left to lose Sinking further everyday How could I live this way Defeated in this futile war I cannot take this any more
The light of the world grows dim in my eyes as they bleed Promises of a good life turn to lies before me
Save me from my myself, this just isnt right The want, the fear, the pain...
I cry myself to sleep every night, I feel i've lost the fight The hurt never leaves from my life, I slowy die inside
Is there a cure from this disease or will I die in misery The pleasure in my life is gone, how did I last this long
There was a time I had seen the beauty of mankind and unbridled love Now I feel the anguish trapped within my soul as I give in The end is here, for me in this lifetime Welcoming my demise.