I think it was the first time I realized
that I could change the world
Or at least change the way me
and my sister hit the clock on every tick just
to see what happened
The time has really flown by
I guess, and it's hard to think of the way it might've been
Or remember really specifically the words
and all the rest of it
I was down, more than I'll ever be, probably
That is what we do with it all together
Like the orange trees in the backyard
and it's Easter, and it just won't end
Fucking Phil, he's off on his board somewhere
And I'm just sitting here getting more
and more lost with everything
And that was the thing about it
it's not as if a cousin promised something
and had taken it away
It was like nobody could share my so-called dreams
which really meant none of it was happening
And that reach around midnight left her
with just about that, nothing
There's not anything particular about it either
and I think that the whole thing gets vaguer every second
But I am too and there's nothing wrong with that
It's even funny when you stop to realize I'm just nineteen
And how serious can anything be anyway?
Not very