In my mind there's a fog
San Francisco couldn't handle
So how this year's been a slog,
Melting both ends of the candle
And how I wish I could claim
That I don't harbor ill feelings
As my anger's turning to shame
And I stare a hole through the ceiling

I'm trying to hold it together,
I'm trying to sleep through the night
I've got my windows open to the weather,
And I keep telling my friends I'm alright
Yeah I'm trying to hold it together,
Trying to take the first step
Into the arms of wherever, whenever

Every day I awake like a stone over water
Skipping across a lake before I sink to the bottom
And how I wish I could say that I'm immune to the mirror
With temples fading to grey,
I'm seeing the end drawing nearer

And I can scream and shout
Or learn to live without

But I'm trying to hold it together,
I'm trying to sleep through the night
I've got my windows open to the weather,
And I keep telling my friends I'm alright
Yeah I'm trying to hold it together,
Trying to take the first step
Into the arms of wherever, whenever