I just read your letter
Its four years old
The words wilt around my guilty heart
Because I know now
I feel what you did
As my sickness grows
I realize, I realize…

You are better than me
And please know it
Here’s the revenge
You never wanted anyway

Tell me how can your scars release
The emptiness I left you with
Evidence of character, stinging me
To offer retribution, where resentment reigns
There’s no acquittal when judgment
Finally fades

Can you descend to hear “I’m sorry,”
Or should I leave it on this lonely piece of paper?

Should have known then what I do now,
Just let me pay my debt to you.
I know you’re pissed when you see me,
I’m sorry for what I did to you.

Tell me how can your scars release the emptiness
I left you with.
Evidence of character, stinging me.
To offer apologies and pay back where it’s due,
There’s no forgetting what I did to you…

Trying to live past my mistakes
Bound in penance, so deep.
Can’t feel the light
It’s been dark so long……
Never forgot how you forgave,

I’m not the same.