My heart beats a little faster
So loud I'm shaking in my head
For no reason

And it hurts like a needle
God I hate myself
For no reason

Quiet
Screaming
Calm down with your breathing

So I'll take two and I'll keep you here
Deep under my skin
Because it's not what I want from you
But it's what I'm used to

I'm a handgun with blood drawn
Out here shooting myself
And it's not what I want to do
But it's what it comes to

I'm stressed and yes I know I'm overweight
24 and it's really only getting worse

To give up or get hurt
I'm just gonna let it hurt

So I'll take two and I'll keep you here
Deep under my skin
Because its not what I want from you
But it's what I'm used to

I'm a handgun with blood drawn
Out here shooting myself
And it's not what I want to do
But it's what it comes to

I don't want to
I don't have to
I don't want to
I don't have to
I don't want to
I don't have to
I don't want to
I don't have to