Mother, I am sorry, I never pick up Because I'm afraid to disappoint Ooh, ooh I, I'm not
And I've been feelin' Like I don't matter how I used to And I've been feelin' Like I don't matter how I used to
Oh we're sat outside on the hardwood floor With our feet in dirt And our hearts in awe I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls And I see the names circle in our thoughts And I think about if we lose it all And I turn to shit that you never want Like the smoke, the drink, anything at all And I'll say again, sorry I don't call There's no money on my mind But my money on my mind was the first to fall Never wanted to... yeah
And I've been feelin' Like I don't matter how I used to And I've been feelin' Like I don't matter how I used to
Sometimes it be so spot on it hurts Like when auntie couldn't decide Between going to work or church I've been in my feelings on an island In the dirt I feel like brothers lie Just so my feelings don't get hurt I said, I'll try vacationin' I'll try to run away I deleted facebook, I'd trade fame anyday For a quiet texas place and a barbecue plate I'd switch my place if that's good for you Is that good for you? My ghost still haunt you My life is "I, tonya" Big eyed monster, only face to conquer I hated songs about fame 'cause This stuff meant nothin' Until them headlines came The first flight I'm jumpin'
And maybe it means nothing But I have to say I think about you often And if you want a war with me I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you And maybe it means nothing But I have to say I think about you often And if you want a war with me I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
I took a plane to somewhere That I've never been Too many times without My sister and my brother Dad or mother by my side But they're in spirit I always hear it, I know they feel it My mom will always have these dreams That keep her up at night I smoke to keep them all away And make use of the time I'm void of feelin' The reasons I'm so out of touch Now stop revealin' But I'm not ashamed I'm not afraid of who I am Or how I trust my mental Yeah it's not perfect But I guess that's just the life I'm into I fantasize about a time When everything was simple My shelter sheltered me From things I needed to commit to The way it stands to me A victim of stockholm And my friendships and family
What's costin' your time What's the reason that you whine? What's in your wallet? dead whites in mine So sour, in this light of lime Daddy said "study harder, get that cash" Mommy said "your career ain't gon' last" Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad I just want a chance to move past my past Don't think too fast, private jets still crash And I still fly coach And I still hit the roads And I still see roaches at the crib Where my folks at Touch your drinks 'fore you touch me And provoke a man (somebody gonna have to tell the truth And I'm gonna tell it!)
And I've been feelin' Like I don't matter how I used to (how I used to) {I don't matter!} And I've been feelin' Like I don't matter how I used to (how I used to, how) {I don't matter!}
How I, how I, how I, how I How I used to, how I used to How I used to